Pushing Through

This morning as I did my 40 minute work out on the treadmill I felt awful.  I only had 15 minutes left, but I felt like I might vomit.  I complained out loud and Kellina told me I should just get off.  I thought about it.  Then I decided to just push through.  I figured the feeling would pass and I would be glad I made the choice to stick with it in the end.  Guess what?  That is just what happened!! 

Lately I have been struggling in "life".  School has become something I have slacked on.  I have been just pushing through.  Then this weekend I had a planning day at Starbucks with a friend.  It was just what I needed to regain something other than just pushing through.  I regained the enjoyment that it brings me and the excitement to teach!

December has been a hard month for me.  Everything felt like a chore.  I was just pushing through the days.  Now with a new year here, a polar bear plunge done, and some new perspective I feel like I am doing so much more than just pushing.  All my pushing through is starting to pay off.  All the urges to give up and vomit have turned into a feeling of well done, you finished. 

Our heart is a tricky and fickle thing.  Sometimes just pushing through something is all we have in us to do.  Most times in the end we are so glad we did.